I can smile.

I've came to a point where I smile a lot more than cry when I think about Shaun. He made me excruciatingly happy. He made my heart smile. He showed me how to to be loved with passion and truth. He changed me forever. And I know that I will get to see him again. I don't know why I am actually blogging this- but I felt like I needed to get it out. I will always love him- but boy, it feels good to get the good memories back without having a complete breakdown. I am so thankful he was a Christian and I knew it. So thankful I have Jacoby. So thankful for all the time we had together- albeit, it was too short. Just thankful to my core. Thankful and peaceful I should say.

I got a picture to hang on the wall the other day - and it describes every way I feel. I'll try to post it on here- but if I can't, here is the summary. Today is your day- this is your life- seize every second.